Flipped

I yelled at my High Schoolers today.  Just with a loud "Hey", to get their attention, because nothing else seemed to.  It drives me fucking nuts.  They are low level, and I get that, I am fine with that, but not giving a shit about anything...it's no wonder they're low level.  I honestly don't know that any of them in that class give a shit about *anything to do with school.  And I understand that, too, but to be disrespectful and just continue to jabber while the teacher is trying to talk.

I let it fly that I would be leaving in 3 months.
Thankfully, they are low enough level to the point where who knows if they understood what I said.  And ultimately, even if they did, I don't think they give a shit.

The class that followed them has 10 more students in it and they are a *blast.
We talked about language and the difficulty experienced between Hangeul and English.  They get it.  Even f I sometimes don't.  It's a world of difference in two different classrooms.  I guess for the first class of the day, I will need to simply do low level elementary crap.  And I am fine with that, but I just think no matter what I do, they just don't care.

Once again...wondering why I am even breathing.
Teaching can be so awesome and so horrible...all in the same day.